UnDisclosedDreams

They say that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. So I left when I couldn’t take the pain any longer, when “You are my everything” turned to nothing. And they came back… and so did the next… and the next Claimed they had made a mistake, But they repeated it. You don’t just fall out of love like it’s nothing. It either is or it isn’t. And while the feelings aren’t as strong, And I have moved on, loved others more, I still love them, It’s just not… the same But I love you so deeply, so wholly, so completely, I don’t even remember what it felt like

My eyes are rimmed in grey; I think a part of me has died, today. I'm crying, and begging, and screaming, I'm bleeding out everything, I'm trying to rid myself Of me I think a part of me has died, today; My eyes are rimmed in grey. Its a mistake I had no intent to make; It's a tear, a gash, a scar of everything that I hate. It's the demons inside, Given life My eyes are rimmed in grey. There's no vibrance left, There's no reason for it, now. There's me Alone With the demons inside And nowhere to hide. I think a part of me has died, today. And at the end of it all... Perhaps, I'll go away, Rimmed in grey, die today.

I’m so tired Of defending myself Hiding Hating I’m so tired Of being pushed Shoved And hardly able to lift a finger back I’m tired Of loving As helplessly as I do I’m so tired I never thought that it’d be you I never thought that this would happen I never thought… But what’s left to trust? There’s nothing left to lose. I know what’s next. I know.

I can't believe That I let three years mean something I can't believe That I let loyalty Trust Faith Overwhelm me I can't believe That I fought For you That I fought To keep you safe Healthy Alive I can't believe That I thought I actually mattered I can't believe That you’d turn So quickly So easily I can't believe That I trusted you And yet I can't believe That you would do this to me Even though I knew That you would

I hate you And then I love you again But I never really hated you In the end I hate that I can't Hold this anger I hate that I can't Fault you At all I hate The control You have That I never gave Did I hand you my heart Or did you take it Away? I don't even know Which way is up And which is down I hate you And then I love you again But I never really hated you In the end I hate you And then I love you again You're the beginning & my end I never really hate you In the end You infuriate me Playfully & honestly And somehow, I don't Want it to stop But in the end In the end I am yours My heart, my mind My body, my soul I am yours & you're

I like how           Love is likened to hope The light amidst the darkness          The saving grace What I don't like           Is how it denotes The darkness          as wrong What beauty and grace           Lays within the shadows What mystery dances           At the edges unseen Is love not           The great Unknown? Is love not           Unexpected? Does one not           Stumble and fall, Crawl and bump        &#

Blink back the reality eye That distorts the world And melts the mind Turn the dial Adjust the bass Block it out; Let the actuality fall away Every facet Of the globe Turns on its side You see The transperancy The rainbow spectrum In crystalline clarity Every flaw And every crack Every shine and every smudge The perfection and everything it lacks It's a different smile On every line It's a different truth to every lie See through the flaws The cracks the imperfection --- See passed the misconceptions There's more than meets the eye, Further beneath the surface, Passed the transparency The truth of the soul Behind shattered glass

It's funny How you seem to think That your reflection Is the greatest shit Since sliced bread Oh, you're depressed? Darling, You love yourself More than anything else in the world The sound of your voice, The beauty of your own grace, The attention it grants you Oh, darling, Do you not realize, You want Your reflection? Can you not See that You don't want him --- You want your own doll The model you've dreamt The mold you've melded, Stop begging for a Mirror When you can't change The human inside of him He's not yours to command You cherish & you love Or you leave That's how Life works That's Love Not bending Until they break Not morphing C